Yesterday in my yoga class I went into a tripod headstand. Every time I do this move it feels risky, ballsy. I sort of feel like I want to be the person to do this because it’s cool and it feels good, but there’s always a voice, some days louder than others, that says, “What the hell are you doing? You really think you can do THAT?”
For those of you who know me, you know that inversions in yoga have changed me, challenged me, and have given me a new perspective on most everything. When I am in a class and it is crowded, I sort of do this halfway tripod headstand to make sure I don’t fall and start a domino effect. I put my legs in a V and I settle my hips up so they are in the place they would be if I pulled my legs together. This keeps me from falling. It keeps me safe.
Yesterday my teacher, Tambra, offered to make an adjustment for me. I love this because we all need someone to help us adjust at one point or another. The adjustment she made, to move my hands farther from my head, made the pose a little harder, but a TON more stable. It only made it harder because it’s a little different – it feels different in my body. I feel the new stability will allow me to move into the full expression of the posture during class very soon.
How dear are the people in our lives who help us make adjustments to the ways we move in the world? Those people who say, “Hey, I see you struggle. Let me help you out. There might be a different way to approach…” whatever the situation might be.
When we make ourselves vulnerable in the world the people who are there to help us adjust safely are the ones who are courageous and whole hearted. Their actions say, “I care about you. I want to help you be stronger and more centered.” I really love that!
I have been struggling for a while to get my mojo, to get my spark back. I have had the last two weeks off from work and anything else productive and have used this time to sleep and vegetate. This is why it has been difficult for me in my holiday stupor to set any kind of goals for the new year.
Each time I thought about setting a goal, I knew in the back of my mind I would never accomplish it. There were a lot of “what ifs” rolling around in my head, but nothing that really stuck and took hold for me.
That is until Tamara’s yoga class on Sunday.
She suggested that instead of setting goals/resolutions for the new year that we think about our intentions instead. BOOM! There it was.
It seems so obvious, this change in semantics, doesn’t it?
I have been thinking about this since she said it. My intentions for the new year:
- connection: I want to create more connections with people both in my social networks and in my non virtual life. I want to become a person who connects people to one another and feels a connected community with others. As cheesy as it sounds, I also want to build a stronger, more loving, connection with myself. I want to create deeper love that eminates out to the people I care about.
- aliveness: Let me explain this one. I want to be better at ingesting things, both food and thoughts, that make me feel more alive rather than the opposite. If it doesn’t help me feel more alive, it goes. I have no room for it. Under this category I want to stick my handstand this year. I am getting close. Handstands are invigorating and make me feel alive, and I will do the other work to create the strength to do it.
- grace: I wrote about this and explored it a lot last year. I want to continue my exploration of grace and gracefulness in the new year. I want to practice it with the people I care about as well as with myself.
The intentions I have set are exciting to me. They are gentle and they feel doable. Intention feels more like an invocation, an invitation, to bring something forward. It’s not rigid like a goal. Life isn’t black and white, so why set up our lives to be so rigid?
What are your intentions for the new year?